I created an abstract painting a few months back that I never was truly satisfied with. The image in my mind had looked so cool, but my product was flawed and ineffective. I was frustrated. As I stared at my work, I couldn’t help but see it as symbolism for the flaws of humankind. This gave me some comfort. After all, I am not perfect nor will I ever be. This flawed painting was simply a reflection of my own defects.
While I wasn’t happy with my painting, my canvas was still good. Deep down underneath all of the paint and other mediums I had layered upon it, my canvas was sound.
So, instead of tossing the entire thing into the garbage in an attempt to pretend my faulty painting had never existed, I decided to start anew.
We are all flawed sinners. Sometimes we get frustrated with ourselves and it is difficult to internally, mentally accept our shortcomings and our mistakes. Often, it is much easier to toss our guilt aside, forcing it to the darkest parts of our mind, ignoring their existence altogether just as I could easily have tossed my entire painting into the trash and out of mind.
Underneath, the human canvas is good. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to face our mistakes head on, ask for forgiveness and start anew.
To start over, I covered the entire canvas in grey paint. As I had already messed up my first painting, this created a great opportunity to go all the way and experiment freely. Thus, I chose to cut and then cover the canvas with small squares of aluminum foil. My initial question was whether I could find a way to allow the foil to peak through the subsequent paint… There is only one way to find out!